I hate myself for making myself hurt so bad. I hate myself for making myself fall so deep down to the ground. I hate myself for letting down my guard and let my heart be hurt once again. I hate myself for believing that i will be happy again. I hate myself for everything.
I know all of this was fated to happen but why me again. Why must i feel so hurt again. Why must karma be a bitch. Did this to people and now i'm facing the consequence.
Need to stop loving anyone. Need to move on for god sake la Atikah! What are you doing to your life. Why are you doing this to yourself. There's a lot of things you have to do rather than facing this same problems again and again. When will you learn your mistake Atikah!
I WILL CHANGE MYSELF. I WILL NOT FEEL LIKE THIS ANYMORE. I WILL TREAT HIM LIKE HOW I WAS BEFORE THIS FEELINGS HAPPEN. I WONT LET ANY GUYS TO CONTROL MY FEELINGS. I CAN DO THIS. IM A STRONG AND INDEPENDENT GIRL! ALL I NEED IS FAITH!