It just happen.
Why do i always have the feeling when things will go the way that i don't want it to go. It sucks to have that instinct feeling cause with that i will just think.
No wonder i've been getting that thoughts the past week. Because why,it did happen. Not only that but lots of shot happened.
It good to have so many people in their mind right. How i wish i can just do the same. But me being me,that will not happen.
Why can't i be like last time. I used to fling around like nobody business. But like people say. Two can play the game.
Keep doing this to my heart and eventually i will just give up and start avoiding. Thats what always happen when i try to avoid people.
But i dont want it to happen. How can i avoid my own bestfriend. But i cant keep doing this to myself. Its like a drug that keep coming.
Its harmful to myself but i keep going for it and hurt myself. Why do i keep thinking about people before mine.
When will i think about myself. When will i stop hurting myself. Im just stupid i guess.
Atikah,18.
