I've always dream of having those fairytale boyfriend. Where the boy would be so gentleman in everything they do for the lady.
Those things exist but maybe i am stupid for not be able to choose well. I don't understand why my heart acts this way. Why do i still love someone who had hurt me a lot of times while i have a guy who really loves me and dont eveb dare to lift a finger on me.
Maybe bad guys attracts me more. But who would i want to be along side with me. But it is so weird. Good guys usually dont have the looks while the bad guys have the looks. No its not about the looks. But just stating the fact that i seen.
Its getting harder and harder as days past by. Maybe i don't deserve to be happy. Maybe i don't deserve to be loved by someone whom i would die for.
Thats how big my love is for you. I would do anything to get the same returns to how my heart longs for you. But all of that will not happen because you will not love me like how i love. Even when i give up,im sure you will give up too.
I know you so bad. You will not chase me like how i chase you. You will not console me like how i console you. I've always been clapping with one hand. That's the reason why i cant hear any sound when i clap with one hand.
Life is so unfair right. I know.
Atikah,18.
